Ahhh change. So hard for me, for many of us. I find myself still adjusting to the house change, yet, also being blessed in the midst of it.
I love stopping at the ocean wall and seeing what comes to mind, it is a great place to pray. So on the wall a couple of days ago, I was wondering what was so hard about this change. I realized that I had finally come to connect with the ocean as a way of comfort. I loved that is was a 2 minute walk out my door and if I needed to see the expanse as a way to get perspective, it was a quick walk and so restorative. Now we are up the hill, not far, but not out the door. It feels I now again have to adjust. Also, I also love seeing "life" outside my window. As a stay at home mom, it is good to see the hustle of people at play and work. Being now in a neighborhood, there is much less of that life teeming about.
My consolation as I was thinking about all of this was that at least I know myself and I had these rumblings before we moved, I think I just thought maybe the benefit will outweigh the cost. It might at some point.
So now the "But"....But I know God continues to be on the move, Of course. I had the thought that, this house isn't for me, in so many ways it is for all those that will cross our threshold. I had really hoped a few months back (before knowing about the house) that I want to be more hospitable, to be there for people in our home. Well we have had more people in our home in this short month and more meals served than any other home in this short of a time span. I want this house to be a blessing. So in spite of my struggle, I know it will be okay and God is God and I just want to settle back and allow him to unfold His ideas for us. It is about yielding, surrendering. In our Bible Study this week, we read about how yieldedness is a choice and how when we are out of control, the Spirit is in control. I want that.
I am adding just a few pictures of new beginnings in a new home (Andrew mowing his first lawn, Deveraux planting flowers, the kiddos on the lanai on their chairs...)
