We had one of those really good days at the beach last week. The kind where you just feel full inside and wish time could just stop. We were at Flemming beach near our house. Flemming holds a lot of memories for us as many talks have happened and big decisions made, like me saying yes to another year on Maui (now here we are 8 years later and counting...) and we also celebrated Deveraux's 2nd and 4th birthdays there and one of my birthdays, and it's one of Andrew's favorite surf spots. It is special. Well the good thing about good moments is they are not planned or anticipated, that is probably what makes them good. I was also caught without a camera (something hard for me) and so this piece of wood is what I have to remember the day.
We came upon the biggest hole I have seen someone dig in the sand. Well Anderson knew it had been made for him as he ran to it. Deveraux not far behind ran into it as well. Then they just played...running, jumping, sliding, running from one hole to another, crashing into each other. There is such joy to be found in this kind of a moment and sadness. I was reminded that our children won't be children forever, they won't run with abandon as we watch them giggle and tumble and be ours in way they won't be ours one day. Their moment caused me much joy and yet I couldn't help but think, oh but this won't last. This is a good reminder because knowing this helps me to engage and try (a battle) to not always be about the task. There will always be something to do (wash a dish, wipe a counter, pick up a toy) and there will be an ache about wanting more or "when this happens...."or planning the next thing. I have been more in touch with the brevity I have these little ones in this way and I want to savor each moment. They are so eager for engagement, play, attention, love, at any moment and I want to be also!
So my prayer...Lord, help me to just be in the day, content, alive, seeking, some struggle of course, but victory. Knowing these days won't last forever and life isn't just about getting things done. It is about stopping, enjoying, your will Lord, how do you want me to serve. Lord, I want what you want, it's the only thing that makes sense because I know me. Have your way.
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