a sunset....

Appears as boy watching waves at sunset.

Reality: Boy not allowed in water as a result

of consequence for behavior on the way to the beach.

Please can I get in???

It's funny, I didn't come to the homeschooling table 

as an expert.  I haven't really treated it like my

other jobs were I have studied, tried to gain expertise,

go to conferences...I think because its all the time,

every hour.  It seemed more of a natural outpouring of 

my life and the other jobs have been something separate 

that I go to and maybe that is why I view it differently.  

But then when I stop and think about it, even though

I haven't ventured too far outside my home, I have 

listened to so many podcasts (some from conferences),

follow leads on learning ideas from social media, and

try to glean whatever I can floating through the airways.

I read about these moms online as homeschooling 

experts, they are confident, speaking at conferences,

producing curriculum, and become familiar names

in the home school world.  I have felt outside the circle

as one who is gleaning and not contributing.

I dont know that I have a complete answer to the question of 

why I don't come more confidently to the home school table or

why maybe I haven't taken a more active role

outside my home.

I don't know if it's an evaluation of good or bad, just more of an

observation that stopped me this morning.

I would like to be more confident in what I am offering

and step a bit more boldly just even within our walls.

Maybe it comes from never knowing if we were going 

to do this from year to year and so the investment doesn't feel as

long term.  Or is it still feeling at times somewhat elusive 

as to why we do this.  There is also so much to study, 

such as learning difficulties, learning styles, and how

to go in the back door and learning.  Also curriculum choices

and relational issues.  It's a lot to keep moving and rolling.  

Scrumptious! 

Ritz living....