Show Up

I have to make a choice to intentionally show up for my life. There are so many demands, duties, pressures, relationships, many good things, and not so good things.

 

We have to intentionally pause or the sound of our lives will drown us out or put us in a place where we are only responding and we are simply going through the motions.

 

How do you pause?  How do you "do it"?  How do you know about all the "to do's?" and yet move over those to get to you, to God, to the still?

 

Our life will move regardless.

  We get to chooses how we will move through it.  We will look back on our life one day.  How do we want to intentionally live?

 

I want to go give to my three.  It will be tiring.  It will be like herding cattle in some moments.  It will produce a need for patience.  But it is my life,  My home with beauty surrounding.  My day with God to see what is possible and to love.

 

To love.  I get to love three in a way right now that no one else will in their lives right now.

 

Make me worthy of the calling. 

 

Happy New Year (insert Jan. post)

My word for the year: Connection

 

So as I write this from my Notes section from my IPhone, I can see how I am doing on these New years Intentions. 

This is what I wrote:

 

Want to really see my kids this year.  Note their strengths, pray for them with intention, and enjoy them.  Put words to what I see in them.  Draw things out of them. 

 

Start with my circle of 5.  This is what I have to give, first offered to my circle and then go out.

I read "Present over Perfect" over Christmas and it was influential for me in these thoughts. 

 

Soul food- reflection and time for myself.  Must have this time for me and God daily! 

 

Physical- I want to get limber again.  Having a baby at 44 can take it's toll.  I want to move my body again in ways I used to and shed some weight.  I want to play more and be comfortable playing in the water.

 

Food: Good whole foods.  Not so many sweets and good nourishing meals.

 

Andrew: earlier to sleep and earlier to rise. To have kiddos down earlier for bed as it is all a domino effect. 

 

House: Simplify.  Want stuff to be simple and light so it can be easily managed and freed up for connection. 

 

So as I take stock.  I see I have some work to do.  Some good choices I have made in regards to food and some physical choices.  Still areas of work.  Connection, want to make it happen.  Grateful for summer to be coming as I can take off the teacher hat a bit and slow the pace a bit and enjoy the kiddos in more play.  It's a daily choice for sure!



Blessed in February

Presentation on weather...filming a segment to show later.

Bobo said this is his favorite part of the house.

"Why Bobo?"

"Bunch of glass and old." 

So of course I had to get a picture of him in front of it!

Waiting for Bobo while he has his ukulele lesson.

Another cooking night!

I wanted to talk with mom today.  There will be a day when I won't

can't talk to her.  She said she felt like she had forgotten how to

do things and that made it hard in her day.  She is aware that

her mind is no longer hers.  She said she was lonely.  So sad.

Our sweet sweet girl.  Can we take too many pictures?

Nah!

She is getting better and better!

Sometimes she doesn't want out kisses.

Helping out.  Sometimes I feel the weight of Bobo's sin. Does God

feel that way about me?  My prayer: God you parent Bobo.

I was listening to a podcast recently.  The guest was saying they

realize their sin more as a parent (me too).  They went on to express

that often what they are telling their kids God is telling them.

She said, they need to know they are loved no matter what so when

they go out they will call upon us (or God) and feel no shame. 

Everyone has a place in the Kingdom and they need to know that now!

Cleaning to leave our house soon!

Pretty bracelet from Auntie Catherine.

Our girls!  Beyond blessed with our 3!

Community (once again) feels elusive and I know I need to stay

on my own path.  Feel a sense of peace today- God is with me.

I feel like I will be okay and I have a sense of even if I don't

taste the community I desire, this side of heaven, it's okay.

 

I do wonder if this will be a thorn for my kiddos.

I feel sad about the potential, will they taste this?

I don't want them to.....

 

Super Bowl Sunday has always represented, not having

people.  Maybe silly...maybe not.....

 

I heard recently the words, "Love is not easily offended."

from ! Corinthians 13.  I like thinking of those words

in terms of our expectations of people or community.

We just keep going, getting up, and saying

yes when the invitation comes.

 

Valentines Acitivities

Deveraux was ready to go for her Valentines party

with her book club.  She is getting to be such a good party planner!

Way to go Dev.  Spreading the table for her friends!

Happy Valentines Day...good-bye for now

dada.  See you after work!

Dada left us presents!

Annual Valentines Tea!

Presents! 

Elephant from dada.

They got into their card boxes that I made them

several years ago that they keep special cards in.

We closed out the night at the beach, of course.