A change

It's not as bad as taking drugs or some other crazy addiction, 

I tell myself.

But there is soemthing in it that I don't want to be abour right 

now, a bit of a distraction.

It can sound like a bit of an addict when I don't feel I can 

turn it off and I end up staying up way too late. 

I need to rise early but that means getting to bed at a decent time.

My life doesn't seem to support my TV habit anymore.  

I need an alert mind and body for what this season requires. 

TV is not the villian. It is a pleasure at the end of the day.

Yet, I want my evening to give life.  In the moment

of watchng a show seems to offer that, but the hangover 

left in the morning tells a different story.

It seems to take more than it gives.

In this season. 

That doesn't seem congurent with the life I want

to lead right now. 

I can become distracted from my own life by

tuning too much into others lives. 

I felt like I would proclam, No more, to myself after seeing 

2 am roll around and then

the following evening find myself there again.  

Breaking habits is no joke. 

Where is my gaze?

And for the reason that I want my gaze to be on my

husband, kiddos, my life, and fully aware...

I think I need to sit this season out some.

Oh sure, I'll still have the shows on from time

to time adn Andrew and I still have a favorite.

But, a change is brewing.  

And I am glad.