Soul space

Here I am in this life giving space.  Soul space.  I can feel the perspective coming back today.  We have had quite a week.  Sickness invaded in our home.  Some days were just about getting from one end to the other.  Part of life is just accepting that reality.  Some days are "get through" days.  I think it is okay to ask God to break through and provide moments of reprieve or endurance but days can just be hard.

I also know getting this soul space allows me to get though the days that are hard. I have a reserve and I have met with a God that now does not feel so distance or disconnected from me.  My life does not allow deep introspection each day, journal writing, or an allowance to chase a thought that enters my brain.  There are three in my care almost all hours of the day.  And its okay as long as I make space at some point.

When I get here, I feel my own skin again.  I am just not reacting to need.  I have passions within,  a person within me and not a person because of my extensions (kiddos).

(I feel like these sunflowers are bowing to the one who made them)

A passion I have is to encourage other women to take their own soul space.  It is how I believe we can live a grace filled life in the midst of a life poured out.  I believe the well must be filled with water so we can draw upon it many times before we can get back to the well again to fill up.  So one must find what fills ones soul.  For me, this means writing, reading, sitting, and praying.  It does not mean Netflix.  I love a good show, sign me up for a good series and I will get excited for that moment on the couch as I am on the home stretch of getting kiddos down to bed.  BUT in this season, that will not fill my well because it does not feed my soul.   It is what it is, entertainment...not soul food.  It is important to recognize what fills a soul so you know what to do when the space is given or created and important to recognize when we are running on empty.

I feel I am a woman of great determination and stamina. But, in this season of homeschooling, loving on a toddler, parenting an energized Bobo, guiding a growing into adolescence girl....I need soul space.  I am so grateful for a husband who gives it to me when asked.  I then can not feel desperate and trust it will come.  Maybe not always in my exact timing, but I must trust the provider for the provision.

I invite others to this table of soul food!