I am convinced that parenting is an exercise in letting go, holding loosely, loads of patience, an honor, and not easy. It is like you have to let everything go at times, expect a lot of work and also not let anything go as far as being consistent to your word and the characters you want to shape as we respond to these little people!
One morning we had a good getting up time, everyone in their places and happy and then I tried to do a 20 minute exercise video that probably lasted an hour due to 5 time outs for Bobo, broken glass as he tipped over a frame, and then went potty on the bathroom floor. "Uggh" I just kept asking for those 20 minutes and then Deveraux while exercising said, as only an innocent child can, "looks like your stomach is getting bigger." "Ughhhh"In those times of frustration, I don't like how I respond which makes those times even harder.
Then we went to the ocean and had a grand time.
You just never know from minute to minute and I have to learn so much about not reacting during the moment to whatever is pressing in. Often my responses should be at a level 4 and they are at 9.
"Praise be to the Lord, to God my Savior, who DAILY bears my burdens." Wow!-for those mornings where I feel I can't get an inch
-when I am struggling with a decision
-when I feel so weary
-when the kiddos are arguing with one another
-when I feel so tired of starting over with friendships
-when the "to do" list, the phone call, the email feels so hard to complete
My burdens are His!
Then Bobo laughs a little laugh or says, "I like you" in the middle of the night or Deveraux struggles to sound out a new word, Bobo says, "yeah yeah gotcha" or "what in the world" and Deveraux's helpful hands contribute once again towards Anderson or I see how she wants to bless him or how he longs to play with her and I say...I am blessed!
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