Just wanting to update in our current walk of faith regarding our future.
It has been fairly "quiet" while we wait. Andrew continues to struggle
at work and we are still puzzled as to why they have not been
given more leadership as a site. He continues to believe he cannot
thrive in his current position at work and waits to be released (by God and man).
He was told by a VP that they would try and get him to Maui.
We were all geared up for July 20th, the posting for a Sales Executive
position at Maui Hyatt.
Well true to this season, the 20th came and went with nothing on the site
for him to apply for....he was assisted by HR at his work and was able
to apply last night. Andrew heard from the current HR running Maui that
she was waiting to hear something from the VP regarding Andrew. He
still worries that he will be stopped in this process and there is more
going on behind the scenes, it is hard to know.
God really can provide good again and again.
Sometimes I believe if He gives something good once,
it may not come again (friends, a beautiful home, etc..)
I had written two years ago when we were making our decision to
come to CA that God was after getting Drew's attention.
It seems the same once again.
I write on July 9th, 2011..."feels like a sacred time. We are
in a holding pattern. We haven't heard from Carmel Hyatt, not sure
if we are going or staying. Waiting by faith, still no offer letter."
Our faith cannot depend on if our plan is working.
A few weeks back I was stopped by a the words of a worship song ,
"Beautiful You are,You are..." I kneeled in submission and really
tried to feel that sense that nothing else matters- all the
worries, stresses of life, desires, because God Is.
A bit of faith.
I was talking with Heather and she encouraged me that
walking in faith means walking in a direction but keep seeking.
God doesn't always drop a sign-but what other choice to we have
but to seek Him!
It's funny but I feel like things end up working
out for Drew and I. Sometimes there is drama
along the way or it isn't always pretty, it is not
without struggle, much uncertainty, times of
testing...but it works out.
Maybe that is what allows me to live in the present.
I was pretty sick with a cold for several days.
The kind where I took a couple of naps (I never take naps).
Andrew said he doesn't like it as he is not used to me being sick.
It makes me feel good, even when I sometimes complain internally
about the never ending tasks or the one who daily manages.
But my time being sick seemed to mirror a bit of this season for us.
There is not a lot we can just "get up and do" and try and create
our own destiny. I can't just "get over" the sickness.
We can't just get to our future.
There is a certain submission, waiting, being helpless, not being
able to escape. Just being able to pray we look at as sometimes a
passive task, instead of the most important active task we can do.
In the kitchen the other day, I had the thought, maybe we need to go to Maui.
Maybe we are not done there. We need to finish something? Our home?
A place I have felt such a desert at times. I ache at the thought of leaving Carmel, yet
it seems to be a growing reality.
I also had a gulp when I was talking to my sister Heather. I realized our lease
was up on July 30th and we had heard that we may not be able
to renew month by month. Well I talked with our owners who are so
kind, good news, lease is extended!
Thank you God, we don't have to worry about being packed in about 20 days!
Waiting, yet living.
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