New Years Eve

First quiet time in Maui....

Where do I start.

Fresh eyes I have for this (Maui) place and yet there is such a

sameness here.

Same people I see on the running path as though I never left....

but I feel different.  I feel new.

Our home feels new to be in but I put things in the same

places as before and it is so familiar.

Our views seem more beautiful than before.

I miss Carmel.  I miss the cool.  I miss how familiar

it felt to me.  I miss our little house and feeling close

wherever I was and where the kiddos were in the house.

When Deveraux is in her room she feels so far away.

2 weeks and a day...we have unpacked most boxes and the

space is livable, although still a lot to do.

Bobo sais he misses our hose.  He said he misses the tree.

Me too Bobo.  He went to bed last night saying,

"I hate this house."  He seems so temperamental to me.

He will have other moments where he says,

"We have the best house!"

Oh Drew's work....where to start.  The faith journey

continues.  He missed the call from the director at the Hyatt due to

our phones being out of service.  By way of miscommunication,

he lost the position he was going to have until an agent

position opened up.  He humbly went to an interview today for a job

he doesn't even really want just to try and start working until

they are ready to hire the next wave of agents.

That thing called money...feels like it just keeps going out

to get this house in order.  We have had to put a lot of work

into this house and we are not used to money being a potential struggle.

Community...some good potential, still feel overwhelmed

with house, getting my mom situated, homeschooling

starting soon,  etc...

Mom living with us, not sure how long, but we definitely feel it is from God

 to open our hearts this way.  But it is also a step in faith.

Routine and schedule...we need one!  Need our house to

come together...

Writing our resolutions on the lanai and Bobo fell asleep!

Our blessings outweigh our burdens!

We continue to say this!

No blessings have been revoked!

 Our ship is intact in this stormy sea.

 We thought it would be different this time...with the job.  Instead we

are "shipwrecked at the stable" (wonderful reading by Brennan Manning).

....needing Jesus!  Or are we "shipwrecked" yet?  Maybe we are still

looking for peace in our circumstances instead of peace in Jesus.

We have had moments that just feel all we need to do is put

one foot in front of the other, as this is all we can do.

(dance performance by Dev on New Year's Eve...we had a

fun time with our kiddos, mom, and Kimberly...we danced

our resolutions out...)

We still love our beloved tree!

Hard to tell but these are paper lanterns that we saw

off our lanai that people were lighting and sending

off into the night sky!

I told Drew before we found out about the loss of the

temporary job while waiting for the agent job...that

I felt peace-anything can happen...lose the house...

whatever-easy to stay or easy to go-can give it all up- all of it!

Then I started to falter a bit when we found out about the job loss.

Trying to get peace where I don't feel it. 

I feel for Drew and worry for us-so unsettled.

We just need Jesus. 

"The human heart is made for Jesus."

Just wishing there were not so many road blocks

and we could figure it all out!

It has felt bleak the last 24 hours...

But, we did have a good New Year's Eve!

And if the above picture is any indication of our Rockin New Years.....