Trust

Written sometime in the late fall....

I sometimes hesitate to write another blog on the topic because I don't want to sound like a broken record but I have such a call right now to trust God through the process of homeschooling through Him.  To trust myself that I can teach my kids well and be their best teacher in this season.  To trust that He will provide what I need for each day.

I had a mometary release on my stress the other day of not getting a quiet time when I thought that this is a "set up" in this season if I am living in desperation for a quiet time.  But I can hope and live in that place and look for opportunities to pull away and trust at some point I will get my cup filled.

I don't want to feel stressed about quiet time for myself.  I'm really wanting to live in a posture of prayer.  But it takes leaving the insight of a really good book on prayer and then...Praying.  Its like I know what needs to be done and I just have to do it.  The message for myself and the kids is that I have to rely on Him.  I just need the fortitude, the space, the discipline to lay it all down before Him in every moment.  I have seen over and over what happens when I try to manage this by myself.  It takes me about 5 minutes and I've lost patience or I feel pressure or I'm drowning and taking everyone with me. 

Everyday I have a new opportunity to lay it down.  To seek.  Ask.  Knock.