Happy New Year

Happy New Year.

Welcome 2017.

 

We have recently arrived back from Colorado.  It is always an adjustment.  Always.  As we rented out our house their was the putting everything back...family pictures back on the wall, journals back in bedside tables, and clothes back in drawers,  It felt overwhelming at times, in part, because I was also trying to use the opportunity to go through things as well.  I felt a need to get the house put

back together before we dove into school.  It is sad to leave our people and a bit of an adjustment to reintegrate with our community in Maui.

 

After the house was slowly coming together, I came down with a really bad cold-the worse only lasted about 24 hours but I felt "knocked down."  Then Dev got sick.  We started school in the midst of this and I felt that all to familiar frustration of trying to "push" my son to learn, worried about our progress, and not being slow to anger.  Ugh.  I just wanted to go back to my sister's cozy downstairs fireplace, feet curled under me, reading in theory about how I can re-create my life in certain areas for more.

 

New beginnings.

We all love them whether we are resolution makers or not.

Newly washed sheets on our bed, a great new pair of shoes, that first sip of a coffee, that new car smell, (or the new shoe smell- as my husband used to love that smell of his new tennis shoes).  A new relationship that is exciting with so much to discover, stepping into a new city on a trip waiting to discover all it's offerings.....

 

We are new creations.  I believe God loves new beginnings.  The Word says, "His mercies

are new every morning."  Look at creation and all that is opening and changing and emerging on a

regular basis. 

 

Yet, I feel defeated before I even start this new year.

Defeat.

What an ugly word.  Exposed and raw. 

And I felt I (we-Andrew and I) needed to claim what was ours...

not allow defeat or anything else to steal our joy and make us feel

incapacitated to move and to move within our home effectively. 

 

I was thinking this morning how gratitude is an antidote for defeat and to

take back the right to newness and our new creation status.  To live in what is

and not the fear and space of what is not. 

 

So Andrew and I got on the same page last night and today feels better.

I will have more thoughts to follow and of course I have to go back a

few months on this blog that I skipped but I like writing in "real time."

 

Happy New Year!