Another year older!

My birthday this year fell on the first day of

our VBS camp, Kamp Kumalani.

I was in charge of crafts and skits, this was

our "staging" area.

So at camp I was feeling a bit overlooked as I saw my

friends but no one was really pursuing me on what I was

doing for my birthday.  But I felt a certain resolve that

it was good to go to the beach with my family.

And then I was met with all these faces for a surprise party!

Sweet Drew and Dev had planned it. We ate

pizza, played a trivia game about Shannon (drewy)

and had desert and some sitting on the beach.

I felt blessed.

Sweet friends.

(It's almost my birthday. I feel a lump in my throat and I not sure why. I think I feel sad in some ways I'm not further in some areas in my life. I wish I could shake off more of my insecurities and not be haunted by some of the same things. I also am wishing I could be "launched" more at this time. Perhaps writing a book or invoked in a ministry full scale- something with leadership components. Geographically I feel stunted. And I also feel challenged that I am a bit whiny and wimpy in my 1st world problems. I read about others doing things and I want to be about "things" but My Reality is feeling tired because I was woken about 6 times last night(baby). My Reality is I have to maximize nap time because I have to complete my Bible study and then after nap I need to pick up the house so I can feel good..  And I balance all of this by saying at 46 (gulp) I want to be okay with where I am as a sign of that age. Comfortable being n this skin- doing my thing and staying in my lane with my people. With gratitude on my tongue).