Dancing Feet

I have felt led to lead a study during this season.  I have led many different Bible studies, all of them following some sort of book or guide.  This is the first one I am somewhat "winging."  I know the elements I desire.  Community, authenticity, safety, Encouraging one another in our faith journey's, and intimacy with God.  Studies at times can trip me up because I can have a performance based bent. I have to be aware of this as I lead.  This was one particular night when I felt I had let it be about me. It felt forced and more about me than God.  It felt hard but also good to name it, ask forgiveness, and move forward.  We don't have to always deny ourselves those things that trip us up, but acknowledge and move forward in growth. 

"I learned (last night) that it was too much information in a short time that I was giving the women.  I learned I need to stop and be led by the Spirit,  I learned that I don't think I was fully prepared to go over a Scripture verse but I kind of wanted it to be a powerful time and in the past it worked, so I went ahead, but I don't think I was ready with this one.  I learned that sometimes I can be guided by wanting to be powerful and impressive instead of being in the moment and not pleasing man but pleasing God.  I learned what a big responsibility it is to lead these women. I learned I want to keep silent and allow others to speak.  I learned it is a process and I don't want to feel guilty or beat myself up, instead to do better."

I need to be right with God, in tune to Him.  It is not the Shannon show! 

I found the quote below and it seemed to fit.

"You taught my feet to dance in disappointment". 

(Photo Above: Some "dancing feet" I saw on our dinning room table that found some powder, 

had to capture it).