More homeschool thoughts...

(bedtime)

On a run

(Our OT time line)

I didn't come to the homeschooling table as an expert. And yet, I haven't really treated it as my other jobs that I came to not knowing anything, where I have studied up, tried to gain expertise, go to conferences, all that I could do to, I think because it encompasses much of the time and many hours.  It is also with my kids and at home so a seemly more natural flow.  I do spend time researching curriculum and other's projects, just not as much developing my own original ideas or spending as much time as I would like on how to present information or ways I can work around learning difficulties.

I read about these moms online as homeschooling experts , sharing what they are doing, confident, speaking at conferences, and producing curriculum.  I have felt outside that circle as only one that is gleaning and not contributing.  I don't know that this is a negative thing, more of an observation at this point that stopped me this morning.

I would like to be more confident.  Maybe it comes from never knowing if we are going to do this every year or if it still feels at times elusive as to why we do this.  And then there are so many areas that I would like to still know more about such as, learning difficulties, learning styles, how to go in the back door to learning...there simply doesn't feel like enough time.  I am usually just trying to stay ahead a bit off the game, planning curriculum, our schedule, and figuring out my own thoughts in the midst of it all.  I would like to be in a different place even as I write this.  I want to share with others and feel as though I have something to contribute to this space in a few years.

Maybe that will come.