His provision

I will choose to trust in Your provision.

The other day on a run I passed a house that we looked at to rent but was too

expensive for us.  It hit me at that moment how glad I was that we were not able to

have that house for various reasons I now know and how thankful for the home we found.

Our home has been perfect for us.

 

I will choose to trust in Your provision.

It is so easy for me to look at our current provision and say, thank you.  Then because it is so good,

I quickly come to the conclusion that the goodness cannot come again.  I was showing our house to a friend who is interested in renting it when we leave.  I was so sad as she was taking the picture of our tree (saying how much her daughter would love the tree) and I thought, we don't have such an imaginative yard in Maui, we don't have a tree to hang ropes on.  Then I decide it just won't be as good and forgot who provided these trees, this Carmel, this season.

 

I will choose to trust in Your provision.

Will it always look the same?  No.  Will I have a friend just like the one I have found here.  No.  It cannot be duplicated again, not in the same way.  So there is sadness in loss.  But there is hope for what will be.  I usually take the sadness of loss and again spiral down to the place where again nothing will be this good, it becomes a devastating loss, and I am losing something

 I can never find again.

That is not true, for the God who provides good again and again and again.

 

I will choose to trust in Your provision.

Sometimes I have sought a certain provision and it is not manifested in the way I am envisioning.  For example, I would rather not struggle finding friends.   God may give provision in another area but not relationally, but I have to still ask myself, will I choose to believe He will provide and there is a reason for a particular desert season.

 

I will choose to trust in Your provision.

I have felt like God might be out to withhold from me maybe for my growth.  I had the thought when we were searching for this house in Carmel that maybe He doesn't want me to find a beautiful home and wants me to grow somehow .  But he blew the lid off that one and inspired me more in this house than any previous one.

 

I will chose to trust in Your goodness and Your provision!