homeschooling days

January 21st.  "Bolster my spirit.  I have a lot in my care.

My life is anything but carefree.  There is a mode that I

operate under daily as I teach and care for our kids. 

Maybe I think they are so carefree that I have to be

the opposite to keep everyone on task.

But I want to play with them as well and I want them

to see me as "light" and that I am able to laugh.

I am gifted with three such different dynamics.  They each ask

for something different.  And I feel like I need space for each

Time to just enjoy and relish baby, she is growing so

quickly.    

Time to create and chat and hang with a girl

I really enjoy. 

 

Time to wrestle, listen, and watch our

boy ride his bike and try some new daring trick. 

 

Sometimes I get overwhelmed because I cannot meet all

those needs simultaneously. 

Self portraits

 

dancing to Orchestra

 

Playing "drive through"

 It is also the most challenging right

now to teach Bobo in school.  It is testing every fiber of

my patience.  It really seems like its not all in his control...

But it is almost maddening to get him on track in

almost every moment.  I also feel it tests my confidence

and insecurities as a teacher because he is not where I

want him to be or where most first graders (as I perceive)

are at this point.  Yet, he is so smart and has such a good mind.

I begin to get insecure about my role as their teacher

because I think I'm stopped from doing what I want to do,

due to time, behavior, and/ or attention. 

 

Of course, Deveraux

Yet, I think a really good teacher would be able to get in the" back door"

and be creative and work through these things with ease.  And

she would excite her kids to learn and not just follow

the workbook.  I've always had certain insecurities when it

comes to book work of my own learning and I always had to work

really hard.  So I don't think I often can just free flow on my

own especially as they get older and into more complex subjects.

 I want to be out of the box.  Have them think and do more than I do.

I get so inspired by other home school moms and what they are doing.

It just doesn't often translate to my room.

Got to be careful not to be pessimistic because some moments it does...

Maybe I just need to think though one thing I want to bring in."

(Just some thoughts from a homeschooling mom one day in January..

all part of our process).

(Looks a little silly, but an art project idea I found).